And the winner is....

Neither of the nursery themes I showed everyone before! lol. Last night my mom called me and told me she had found a theme that was what I had originally wanted with the colors and accessories that I had described to her.

The winner?
A B-E-A-utiful construction theme done in dark teal, olive green, chocolate brown and butternut yellow. I LOVE everything about it! The best part? All bedding, diaper holder, toy holder and two window valances were $50. The hamper, lampshade, wall hangings and two curtain panels that are the dark teal color with construction stuff on it were around $75 extra. Not too shabby for everything pictured, lol!

Hopefully it will be here within the next few weeks. I can't wait to get started.

Noah,
I hope that you can sleep well and grow up strong with the things that mommy is picking out for you.
Love you, sweet baby boy!
Momma

Nursery Themes

Since I found out I'm having a boy, mom and I have been searching the internet for nursery themes that I like. I think that I've narrowed it down to two.
The first theme is jungle animals.

I love, love, love this one. I've been really leaning toward the jungle animals for a while now. I love the wall border and the bed spread, but I'm not crazy about the lamp and the mobile...I like opposite things about each theme, lol.

The second theme is an airplane theme.

I really like this theme...I love the mobile and the lamp. I think the bedspread and the theme in general is cute too :)

I've got a little while to think on it but for right now I'm just looking for opinions. I know which one I'm leaning toward, but I want to see what everyone else thinks ;)

Noah, I can't wait to get your room ready for you to sleep in. I can't wait to hold you in my arms! Love, Momma

It's a......

BOY!

I found out yesterday at my ultrasound that my little Lovebug is a little boy ;)

Although I had started wanting a little girl, I'm still excited. I think that little boys are so much fun and I'm sure that Noah will be no exception.

The ultra-sound didn't go quite like I thought it would because it ended up being really last minute. Since moving to Poplar Bluff from Centralia, dealing with the doctor's office has been horrible. Between not being able to get my medical records sent from one office to another and then not being able to get an appointment until April 6th, I was pretty much fed up.

If I would have stayed in Illinois then I would have been having my ultrasound yesterday. I finally got into the doctor and they told me even though I had an order from my old doctor they wouldn't write me a new one. So I called my Aunt Lora and my cousin Gretchen, who incidently was able to get me in (yay!). She knew who to call to see if something could be worked out. It was and I was able to go to my ultrasound.

The (sort of) downer to the situation was that Eric wasn't able to come because the notice was so short. Although I wish that he could have been there to see Noah, I realize now that it was probably better that he wasn't. I still am having a hard time dealing with the conflicting emotions I have every time I see him.

Honestly, I want to hate him. But I can't. The part of me that has loved him for 10 years and been his wife for 4 won't let me. The position I'm in is difficult to say the least. No matter what I do I'm afraid that I'm doing the wrong thing. I want to share these things with him, but when I consider the situation I don't do very well handling everything.

I have to continue to try to make decisions for the baby and myself. I hate that he couldn't be there yesterday because I know he would have liked to be but at the same time I feel that it was probably better that he wasn't.

Dear NOAH,
Right now mommy is trying hard to make decisions that are going to be the best for you. Even when I worry that my decisions aren't the best, know that I love you very much and I'm so excited to meet you!
Love,
Momma


It's a boy! And there, friends, is the proof.

March 8/ 18 weeks

As most readers probably figured out by the last post, Lovebug and I are on our own. Us against the world! and that's okay. This is my 18 week picture taken in my new house in Missouri. Weight gain: 2 pounds.
I can't believe that I'm getting so big...it makes me nervous to think that I am almost half way and I'm already this big :)

Dear Lovebug,

When you were in mommy's tummy, mommy and daddy made a decision they believed would be best for you. Although we loved you more than anything in this world, we realized that we didn't love each other anymore.

Sometimes, mommies and daddies do this. It is not something they choose or want but sometimes, lovebug, it is the way things are.

This does not change our love for you. Although you may not be with both of us all the time, you will always have someone there who will love you and guide you with every hope being that you grow strong, beautiful and happy. That is all mommy and daddy want for you. We want you to be happy.

I know that you don't understand now what has happened. Someday, when you are old enough you will understand. You will fall in love and my every hope for you is that you can have the very best life with that person.

We love you, little lovebug.

My little Flutterbug!

     Wow!  I can't believe I waited so long to update!  I should be ashamed of myself ...especially since I've had a few neat things happen :)  Good thing I'm good about writing down dates!

     On February 23 (I was 16 weeks), I was laying on the couch (I do that every night now...more about that later) and I felt a little flutter sensation.  It felt like when someone is playing the drums on your arms with their fingers.  It lasted for several minutes and then happened again later.  I was so excited!  I've thought that maybe I'd felt the baby move in the past, but I realize now that it probably wasn't the same thing.  

     I didn't really feel much consistently after that but the last few days (especially if I'm laying still) I feel the baby move :)  It's a wonderful sensation!

     Secondly, my back and lower abdomen freaking hurt at night.  This is one of those things that no one thinks to tell you about BEFORE you are pregnant.  I normally spend my time after dinner cuddled up on the couch with a heating pad.  Eric has been really sweet about it, I think because he realizes that I'm in pain.  It's not like "killing" pains, but they are pretty uncomfortable.

     After a few nights of this I called the doctor and they said it is stretching ligaments and my uterus getting larger to accommodate the baby.  Apparently, a lot of moms complain about this when they are about 16 weeks along.  Yeah! 

Dear LoveBug,

Mommy is glad to feel you!  Thank you for fluttering around and letting mom know that you are alive and kickin!  I can't wait to see you again on March 18th!